The first thing I realized was that I was no longer in the center of things. Working all those years had given me the "illusion" that others would be at a total loss if I were to leave. I found out different. In fact, after I was "escorted" from that last job, few contacted me. And after a couple years, no one did. All the hours I spent helping others, thinking that without me they would not know which way to turn, well, turned out to be, as I said, an illusion. I was needed when I was present. When I was no longer present, the need vanished.
Now, this was not easily accepted right away. In fact, it took a long time to come to grips with the fact that the universe REALLY didn't revolve around little me. And the realization hurt for awhile. I felt abondoned. I am married to a very nice but independent man. I no longer felt needed by anyone. I felt lost.
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